Simple. I have the freedom to do whatever I want, whenever I want to. Ipdiyae kadaisi varaikum irukanum.

I still haven't figured that one out entirely. But, I think it's,

• Guiding others to a treasure that I cannot possess.
• To inspire others
• To set an example
• To show others that even a failure like me can work hard enought to be successful.

Love towards people naalum, love towards sports naalum, rendum oru vagayana addiction than.

Logical standpoint la, people are emotional and unpredictable. Evlo than dedicated and loyal ah irunthalumn, external factors aala antha person change aagalam. "When a man learns to love, he must also bear the risk of hatred." mathiri, you may end up being hated.

Love towards sports makes you stronger, both physically and mentally. When you love sports, you don't fall into self destroying habits such as smoking, drinking, etc... Which is kinda a good thing. Sports never betrays you, "As you sow, so you reep." mathiri, you will get what you worked for.

I know that I'm unique, open-minded and genuine. I don't hold grudges. When someone does something bad to me, I just say "Kiruku paya" and move on. If I think justice is on my side, I don't care who is on the other side, I will stand against whatever is coming. Naan nallavanthan, aana romba nallavan illa. Personally, I love my imperfections and scars. They made me who I am today. I love that I'm kind, at the same time, I burn bridges whenever necessary. I don't have time for betrayals, have seen enough. I follow vadivelu's "Give respect, take respect policy" - If you treat me good, I will definitely treat you better kinda person. I will do anything for the people who are close to my heart. Evan enna nenacha ennaku enna, my life, my dreams, my goals - Yarukum prove pananum ni vaalnthathu illam vaazha porathum illa. I don't share my pain, some don't understand, others don't care.

I grew up in my cousin's house. He was like a God parent to me. I adopted his second name, barathithasan, barathiyar maela ulla eedubaatil than peyarai maatrunathu pola. He saved my life once.
Ennathan chinna vayasulayae nan atha adopt panirunthalum no one called me Joe. Until my college days. There was another guy in my class with the same name as me. Apdi than Tamizhan Joe aanar.

• School Crush - She used to be this quiet kid. Never really talked to her. She is a Doctor now. Got married.
Rekka matum iruntha en crush devatha nga.

• College First Year - Antha ponnu unna than pakra pakra ni kalapi vitu commit aanathu. First relationship, athula naan introvert vaera. Konja naal ku aprm antha ponnu ku vaera boyfriends(plural) irukanga ni theriya vanthuchu. Apdi nasama ponathu than en first love. Not to be rude, but kadavul en vaalkai la vilayadama irunthurukalam.


• 3rd and Final Year - Avangala pakra munadi varaikum, love oru thadava than varum ni nenachitu irunthaen, guess what, I was wrong. She was a good friend, ava extrovert, nan introvert, right person ah ni theriyala but definite ah wrong time. One side ah vae mudinju pochu. Crush Tribute music avangala nenachu panunathu than. She got married now.


• 2022 - Unexpected ah en life la vanthu life ah thalageel ah change panuna oru girl. I learned a lot and suffered a lot. Naanga commit aanom ah illaya ni kooda ennaku theriyala. Entha karapaan poochi kannu patuchu ni theriyala it went down hill. Two months ah friends ah irunthom. She was a really good friend, wonderful person and treated me very good. We were spending too much time texting each other, sharing memes, talking about Taylor Swift. I knew she could be the one. So I rushed things up and messed up. Ennoda life la romba miss panura person avanga than. Didn't they tell us, don't rush into things? Didn't you flash your green eyes at me?


• 2023 - First time ennaku oru love letter vanthuchu na athu ivanga kita irunthu than. She really made a very good first impression. First day meet pannum pothae love letter ah yum koduthutu, "First meet la yae love letter kodukuraen ni thappa nenachikatheenga" ni vaera sonnanga. Vaali enna pa paatu eluthunaru, avanga rendu page ku kavitha eluthi vachirunthanga parunga. Neenga enna soneenga ni thana kaekreenga?
Unmaya Sonaen. I didn't know her much ni solratha vida, I didn't try ni solalam. May be deep down she is not the one ni thonicho ennamo.


• The One 2023? Finally, vaalka full ah poraduna aprm, I found the one. I found her ni solratha vida, we found each other ni solalam. May be not. Love found us. We weren't looking for love, we weren't friends, We barely knew each other. Love found us, and binded us together. We still have battles to win. Everything seemed good. Until the point it didn't. There was something that was really missing - Understanding. I get it, I'm kinda a crackhead - I do stuffs logically. Yes means yes to me and no means no. Understanding her was difficult for me at least. And at a point I spent most of my time explaing why I do the way I do. She felt like I didn't understand her while I was the one who was not understood. So we broke up.



• 2025 - I was focussing more on sports and was active on instagram. Appo than random ah I got a response to one of my instagram stories from this person. She used to respond to stories ocassionally over the last several months. But, that day the messages stood out. The conversation was somthing like this:
  She : Unga amma number kidaikuma?
  Me : Ethuku?
  She : Appo thana kalyanathuku paesa mudiyum.
  Me :
  It was really sus. But then she went on explaining how she had a crush on me for years. And she wasn't ready all these years to express it until that day.
  The way I visualize her love: I was really impressed with the way she expressed her love - "Unga Amma number kidaikuma?". But, deepdown I knew that I don't deserve her nor am I the right person for her. May this type of love find all the good people out there.
  
  
• To infinity and Beyond - I know that it's almost impossible to find a genuine person who really care and understands me completely. As you can see, I have been througth a lot and had my fair share of pain. But, this doen't mean that I have lost hope in love or afraid to allow someone close to my heart. If love really exist it will definitely find me some day. May be not today, not tomorrow but definitely some day.


Pin kuripu: Ithalam thandi evanachum itamizhan ooda paiyan LKG padikran ni sonna, athuku sangam porupu kidayathu.

Recent ah nan 400Mts workout ah pathi oru video post panirunthaen. Athula ennoda 400Mts Personal best kaetanga. I don't have one. Appo than thonichu, Why can't I try ni. So, next plan vanthu innum konjam Athletics events try pani personal best track pananum.

Ithu oru nalla kaelvi. The first thing that comes to my mind is this:
"When a man learns to love, he must bear the risk of hatred".
Life is not fair and people change. We can't possibly understand what others are going through. If a girl leaves you, she may have reasons, sometimes it's easy for her to say, sometimes it's not. Sometimes love also means staying away from someone. If you truly loved her you would wish her no harm. Though it is painful you must understand that this pain defines you and shapes you. They are necessary. As to move forward, it's not that hard. If you could treat yourself half as good as you treated her, you life would start becoming colorful. Remember you have a purpose in life so go find it. Focus on self improvement and make yourself better than yesterday.
"This shall too pass"

I don't know if I could remember everything to list them here. But, Let me try.

• My first sports Injury.
• My breakups.
• When our startup failed because of betrayal.
• My long jump injury.
• Failed App project.
• When I locked my Dad's phone when I was a kid and it asked for PUK code.
• When I crashed my Cousin's PC.
• When I crashed my other Cousin's PC and I have to reinstall OS by learning how to.
• When I accidently erased a 500 GB partition during Arch install.

• Singers - Taylor Swift, SPB, Hiphop Tamizha Adhi
• Footballers - Christiano Ronaldo, Lionel Messi
• Sprinters - Usain Bolt, Justin Gatlin, Asafa Powell, Jesse Owens
• Tamil Actors - Thalapathy Vijay, Ajith Kumar, Superstar Rajinikanth, Ulaganayakan Kamal Haasan, Danush, Simbu, Vikram, Vijay Sethupathi, Sivakarthikeyan
• Tamil Comedians - Vadivelu, Goundamani, Vivek, Senthil, Yogi Babu
• International Actors - Robert Downey Jr., Benedict Cumberbatch, Johnny Depp, Christian Bale, Ryan Renolds, Tom Hanks
• Directors - Christopher Nolan, Lokesh Kanagaraj, Nelson, K.S. Ravi Kumar, A.R. Murugadoss , Atlee, Venkat Prabhu
• Scientists - Stephen Hawking, Albert Einstein, Nikola Tesla
• Others - Stan Lee, Elon Musk

Where do we start? Hmm... Love "When a man learns to love, he must bear the risk of hatred".

• Idk where to start.

• Azhagana vibathil indru haiyoo naan maatikonden Thappika vazhigal irundhum vendam endren.
• Nilavaaga unai vaanil paarthen Alaiyaaga unai kadalil paarthen Silaiyaaga karum kallil kooda unnai paarthenae.
• Hey love love love Telephone booth love Ava kurala mattum kettu vaikkum one side love.
• Oru sottu kadalum nee oru pottu vaanam nee. Oru pulli puyalum nee brahmithen.
• Adadaa bramman puthisaali. Avanai vida naan athishtasaal
• Pennae unathu mellidai paarthen adadaa brahman Kanjanadi. Sattrae nimirnden thalai suttri ponen aahaa avanae vallaladi
• Tholainda en kangalai parthathum koduthu vittai. Kangalai koduthu idhayathai eduthuvittai. Ithayathai tholaithadharka en jeevan edukkirai.
• Kathal vanthal solli anupu, uyir ooda irunthal varugiraen.
• Athisayamae asanthupogum nee endhan athisayam. Kalthondri manthondri kadalthondrum munnalae undana kaadhal athisayam.
• Oru poiyavathu sol kannae, un kaadhal naandhaan endru. Antha sollil uyir vaazhven.
• Nooru kodi pengal undu un pol yarum ilaiyae. Aanal kanni unthan kangal kangal matum kana villaiyae.
• Kaadhal azhaganadhaa illai arivanadhaa, kaadhal sugamanadhaa illai sumaiyanadhaa.
• Imai mooda maruthu vittal Vizhigal thoongathu, Idi thaangum idhayam kooda Mounam thaangathu. Un vizhi eerppu visaiyinilae anbae anbae, Naan vanthu vizhunthu vitten anbae anbae.
• Irava pagala kulira veyilaa ennai ondrum seiyaadhadi, kadala puyala idiyaa mazhaiyaa, ennai ondrum eiyaadhadi. Aanaal undhan mounam matum yedho seiyudhadi, ennai yedho seiyudhadi, kadhal idhudhaanaa.
• Nee neruppu endru therindha pinnum, unnai thoda thunindhen enna thunichaladi, manamagalaai unnai paartha pinnum unnai sirai edukka manam thudikuthadi.
• Kollai konda andha nilaa ennai kondru kondru thindrathae, inbamaana andha vali innum vendum vendum ndradhae.
• Illai illai solla oru kanam podhum, illai endru sollai thanghuvathendraal, innum innum enakkor jenmam vendum. Enna solla pogiraai.
• Anbae endhan kaadhal solla nodi ondru pothumae. Adhai naanum meippikkathanae oru aayul vendumae.
• Nee paadhi thookathil pulambuvathai Oli padhivu naan seiya maataeno.
• Eno Thannaalae Un Melae Kaadhal Kondenae. Edho Unnalae En Vazhvil Artham Kandenae.

• Valiyathu than uyir pilaikkum. Idhu varai iyarkayin vidhi idhuthaan.
• Ivan varalaarum oru yugam paadum. Ivan kalai dhaagam por vinaiyagum. Ivan adaiyaalam adhu kadalagum. Pala porvendra oru peyar aagum.
• Vizhundhal idiyai ezhundhal malaiyaai, thalaivan oruvan perum por kalaingan. Pala vaal thuzhaithum ivan vizhundhadhillai, ulagey edhirthum ivan adangavillai. Idhu pol oruvan ingu vaazhndhadillai, avanae muyandrum ivan maindhadhillai.
• Kettuko luck kaal kilo, loss kaal kilo, labour kaal kilo, sethukko bakthi kaal kilo, hope kaal kilo, talent kaal kilo, ellaam dhaan serthu kattinaal, periya pottalam secret of success.
• Ivan perai sonnadhum perumai sonnadhum kadalum kadalum kai thattum. Ivan ulagam thaandiya uyaram kondathil nilavu nilavu thalai muttum.
• Nee neeyaai vanthaai theeyin karuvaai kangal uranginaalum kanavugal urangathe.
• Vidhaiyaaga Vaazhum Namakku Kadhaigal Irukku Naalai Namakke Vidiyum Vizhithu Poradu.
• Pala perin mugamma ninnu aadura puli dhanae. Velayaada ninacha un vidhi mudipaaanae. Sila perin peyar dhaan oru aalumai perumaanae. Oru veeran thadamae nee kaayam vaangura edamae.

• Eer ethir dhuruvangal inaiyum endrae Iyarppiyal yeluthiyatho. Eer ethir payanangal inaiyum endrae Idhayangal yeluthiyatho.
• Veezhvadhu yarayinum Vazhvadhu nadagatum.
• Mannil naam vaazhgira kaalam konjam Vaazhvil un suvadugal engae minjum Enni paarada maanuda ennodu nee paadada.
• Mannin meethu manithanukaasai Manithan meethu mannukkaasai. Mannthan kadaisiyil jeikkirathu Ithai manamthan unara marukkirathu.
• Idhayam enbathusathaithaan endraal erithalal thindruvidum. Anbin karuviidhayam endraal saavai vendruvidum.
• Veesum katru vandhu vilakkanaikkum, vennilaavai adhu anaiththiduma. Kottum vaan mazhai nilam nanaikkum, andha vaanam thannai adhu nanaiththiduma.
• Netru enbathum kayil illai. Naalai enbathum payil illai. Indru mattumae nenjil mitcham undu
• Thamarai ilaitha neer pol nee otti ottaamal iru.
• Kadhal oru kadalu marida, athai maranthutu tumblerukul neechal yenada.
• Naalai endrum namm kaiyil illai, naam yaarum devan kai bommaigalae. Endraal kooda poraadu nanba, endraikkum thorkkaathu unmaigalae.

Spotify: Tamil Thoughtful

• Sila varthai thitti peesu athu kooda pothumae En kaadhal vetri petra santhosam kollumae Vegathil pogum pothu kaalai thatum kallai kooda.
• Siru siru uravugal pirivughal en ninaivukkul oh.. Vara vara kasakudhu kasakudhu en ilamaiyum hey.. Ninaithathu nadanthathu mudinthathu en kanavukul haan.. Ennaacho theriyalaiyae.
• Andha vaanam azhutha than Intha bhoomiyae sirikkum. Vaanam pol sila per Sontha vaazhkaiyum irukkum. Unarnthen naan...
• Irava pagala Kulira veyilaa, ennai ondrum seiyaadhadi. Kadala puyala idiyaa mazhaiyaa, ennai ondrum seiyaadhadi. Aanaal undhan Mounam matum yedho seiyudhadi ennai yedho seiyudhadi. Kadhal idhudhaanaa.
• Ithu varai unnudan vaazhntha en naatkal, marumurai vaazhthida vazhi illaiyaa. Irulilai thediya thedalgal ellaam, vidiyalai kaanavum vidhi illaiyaa.
• Kaadhalin avasthai edhirikkum vendam naraga sugam allavaa.
• Kaadhal irukkum bayathinil thaan kadavul bhoomiku varuvathillai. Meeri avan bhoomi vandhaal dhaadiyudan thaan alaivaan veedhiyilae.
• En kaadhal solla neramillai. Un kaadhal solla thevayillai. Nam kaadhal solla vaarthayillai. Unmai maraithaalum maraiyathadi.
• Un kaiyil sera yengavillai. Un thozil saaya aasaiyillai. Nee ponapinbu soghamillai. Endru poi solla theriyaadhadi.
• Oru vaarthai pesamal neepaaradi. Undhan nimidangal neelatumae. Ver edhum ninaikamal vizhi moodadi. Indha nerukangal thodaratumae.
• Pennae undhan nyaabagathai Nenjil serthu vaithenae. Unnai pirinthu pogaiyilae Nenjai ingu tholaithenae.
• Unakae ennai koduka ninaithu manasai naan anupinen romba aasaiyaai. rpolae paatezhutha enaku theriyalayae unna pathi paadaamathaan iruka mudiyalayae.
• Kavinganuku kalaiyin meedhu kaadhal vandhadhu andha kalaiyin meedhu konda kaadhal unnai vendrathu. Iruntha pothum undhan meedhu kaadhal enbathu en kanavil vendru vaazhvil vendru unnai velvathu.
• Kaneeril vaazhvathal naamum ingae meengal thaan. Neenthithaan kaadhal endra kadalil poi seralaam.
• Ingillai endraal enna sorgathil naam seralaam. Sorgathilum jaathi matham endru pirithaal. Sorgamae thevai illai naragathil vaazhalaam.
• Unnai indrodu naan marapenae naan marapenae, unnalae nenjil pootha kaadhal meylum meylum thunbam thunbam vendaam.
• Aval azhagai paada oru mozhi illaiyae, alanthu paarkka pala vizhi illaiyae, ena irantha pothum aval enthillaiyae. Maranthu po en manamae.

Spotify: Tamil Sad

• I wish I could unmiss you. Reverse the time so I could unmeet you. It would've made it so much easier, easier. If I could unmiss you when I miss you.

Spotify: English Melodies

• I never fear death or dying. I only fear never tryin. I am whatever I am. Only God can judge me now. One shot, everything rides on tonight. Even if I got three strikes, I'ma go for it.

Spotify: English Motivation

• You better run, you better do what you can. Don't wanna see no blood, don't be a macho man.

Spotify: English Thoughtful

• Only know you love her when you let her go And you let her go.
• Show me the meaning of being lonely Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
• Was I stupid to love you? Was I reckless to help? Was it obvious to everybody else.
• Fool me once, fool me twice. Are you death or paradise? Now you'll never see me cry. There's just no time to die.
• I tried so hard and got so far. But in the end it doesn't even matter. I had to fall to lose it all. But in the end it doesn't even matter

Spotify: English Sad

• It's me Hi, I'm the problem it's me.
• Band-aids don't fix bullet holes.
• Didn't they tell us, don't rush into things? Didn't you flash your green eyes at me?
• Oh, my God, look at that face You look like my next mistake.
• So it's gonna be forever Or it's gonna go down in flames. You can tell me when it's over, If the high was worth the pain.
• "Oh, my God, look at that face. You look like my next mistake. Love's a game, wanna play?" Ay
• But I've got a blank space, baby And I'll write your name.
• 'Cause we're young, and we're reckless. We'll take this way too far. It'll leave you breathless, mm. Or with a nasty scar.
• Got a long list of ex-lovers, They'll tell you I'm insane. But I've got a blank space, baby, And I'll write your name.
• Got a long list of ex-lovers, They'll tell you I'm insane. 'Cause you know I love the players, And you love the game.
• Boys only love if it's torture.
• 'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in.So shame on me now.
• Oh, it's so sad to think about the good times, You and I.
• You got that James Dean daydream look in your eye. And I got that red lip classic thing that you like. And when we go crashing down, we come back every time. 'Cause we never go out of style, we never go out of style.
• Don't blame me, love made me crazy. If it doesn't, you ain't doin' it right. Lord, save me, my drug is my baby. I'll be using for the rest of my life.
• In the middle of the night, in my dream. You should see the things we do, baby. In the middle of the night, in my dream. I know I'm gonna be with you. So I'll take my time. Are you ready for it?
• Say you'll remember me, standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset, babe, red lips and rosy cheeks say you'll see me again, even if it's just in your wildest dreams.
• This love is good, This love is bad. This love is alive back from the dead, oh, oh, oh. These hands had to let it go free, and, This love came back to me, oh, oh, oh.
• You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess. It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes".
• Pala kodi pengal thaan boomiyilae vaazhalaam, oru paarvaiyaal manadhai parithu chendraval neeyadi.
• Unakenavae kaathirundhaalae kaal adiyil vergalum mulaikum, kaadhalil valiyum inbam dhaanae dhaanae.
• Unadhu per ezhudhi pakkathula enadhu perai naanum ezhudhi vechen, adhu mazhaiyil azhiyaama kodai pudichen, mazhai vittum naan nanainjen.
• Look what you made me do.

Spotify: Taylor Swift

• Intha mari nerathula veerangalam adikadi solra vaartha enna theriyuma. Pathukalam.
• Naan veelvaen endru nenaithayo?
• Paaka thana pora, Intha kaali ooda aatatha.
• Mala da, Anna mala.
• Once upon a time, there lived a ghost. He is not a myth anymore.
• Powerful people comes from powerful places.
• Powerful people makes places powerful.
• Am i sweating? No just rain. These fools could never make me sweat.